#RoadTo27 Day 3 – Be You.

I guess this is kinda turning into a “things I’ve learned” series…Lord knows I’ve sure as hell learned a LOT over the last year.

This morning I woke up reluctantly after a rough nights sleep knowing I had to get ready to go to a second interview. You could say I was less than excited. Not because I don’t want the job, I actually really love the company and hope I land it, but because I wasn’t in the mood to get “girled up” and impress anyone today.

Then it hit me…I don’t have to.

I took the time for my first interview to make sure my hair was perfect, my makeup was flawless, my jeans were starched and pressed and my shirt was really nice. I mean, it’s important to present yourself well, right?

Today, however, I took a different approach. Knowing the available position had been narrowed down to myself and one other lady, I had an “all or nothing” attitude. If they don’t like me for plain ole me, they don’t want to hire me…because I’m not that starched jeans and red lip girl all the time. If my personality, attributes and experience don’t get me the job, but red lips will, well…I don’t want it anyway.

I took about 15 minutes to enjoy getting ready the way I would for any normal date night or something to that effect. Fixed my hair so it didn’t look so much like a disheveled hay bale, brightened my eyes a bit and made my eyelashes visible…nothing spectacular. I threw on the only pair of “non-work” jeans I had, a tank..and a neon pink and black button up shirt.

I laughed to myself when I looked in the mirror; I felt just exactly like me. That’s a good feeling. With my confidence high I strolled to the interview.

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I was early, as usual. This gave me a few minutes to visit with one of the fellas before the other showed up. It was in this small talk that I learned something about myself…

It wasn’t the pressed jeans and put together look that got me that second interview..it was my handshake.

When he said to me “So, you used to work on a ranch? That tells me a lot about your work ethic.” …it made me smile. I take a lot of pride in those years of loping ponies and long hours with the greatest West Texas cowboy I know, and I learned a lot.

“Yes sir.” I said..and I noticed an ornery looking grin about him.

Then he said, “You know what really impressed me about you?” …puzzled, I shook my head, and that’s when he said “Your handshake.”

Now I was the one with the ornery grin! When someone compliments something that is relevant to my character, I can’t usually contain myself. Of course I gave him a thank you, but he went on to say “It’s not often you get a handshake like that, it’s respectable.”

I was seriously speechless.

The second fella showed up and we proceeded to visit about what they’d require, my ability to do those things not originally discussed, etc….near the end of our chat a man walked into the office. He seemed important, sure enough …it was their CPA. I stood and shook his hand when they introduced us. Mr.CPA looked down at the fellas doing my interview like “Whoa, really?” …I just smiled as I sat back down.

Driving home I reflected on this. I had never thought about those little things. Those little signs of respect and sincerity that set me apart…the confidence I exude when introducing myself that makes me memorable. I know that I’m silly and quirky and funny and a bit odd, but I now know that those aren’t the qualities that stand out.

It’s my genuine being…it’s ME, as an individual. It’s my manners, it’s the way I was raised…it’s the fact that I’m different. It’s the fact that I respect people as individuals.

I’m pretty proud of that.

So, even if I don’t land this job…I know that in the last year of soul searching I’ve done something right. I’ve stayed true to my most genuine self. The woman who has never met a stranger, who respects everyone and who would do just about anything to put a smile on a face.

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Seriously, anything.

Stay true to who you are. Be YOU.

xoxo

OkieGirl

 

 

#RoadTo27 Day 2 – Change

Yesterday was day one of the newest DragonFit bootcamp round. I decided I was gong to fully commit this round, no half assing. I posted in our sisterhood group that I was going to do the “Mile For Time” challenge mentioned in our emails, and that I was going to crush my fastest mile. When I woke up this morning I had one thing on my mind – beating that time. I went to sleep thinking about it, I woke up thinking about it…I was going to do it.

I stretched and reached for my phone to check the time and the first thing I saw was a text from a girlfriend that said;

“Why am I afraid of change?!?!”

I sat there, phone in hand, trying to think of just what to tell her…

Because it’s scary! That’s why!!

What if you fail? What if you can’t do it? What if you lose friends? What if people mock you? What if…

…what if you succeed?

Over the last year I’ve made more changes than I can actually really wrap my head around. Small things like shaving off half my hair…and huge things like leaving my toxic marriage.

They were all scary, and they all caused exponential self growth. I’ve grown accustom to change, and I really like it – but it’s still very scary. I like it because I always grow and learn about myself, even if the change wasn’t necessarily “good”.

So, here’s my advice on change.

  • Embrace it, embrace the HELL out of it. It’s gonna be scary, but it’s going to be worth it.
  • Figure out what part of it is actually scaring you – for me, it’s often the fear of success.
  • Understand that every time you walk through a new door you’re going to lose people. Also understand that is perfectly okay. Most people we meet are just for certain phases of our lives, the ones who are meant to follow through each door will remain.
  • If there is someone who doesn’t support your change, they are NOT your tribe and you do not need them.
  • Seek positive energy and surround yourself with people who have similar goals and ambitions. It wasn’t until I did this that I really started to succeed.
  • Don’t worry about the thoughts of others. This is particularly true for lifestyle changes. When I started lifting like crazy and packing on muscle, I lost a lot of “friends” …that was my choice. No one get’s to decide what my body should look like but me!
  • LAUGH. When you hit a speed bump or completely screw up, laugh about it. Realize you’re human, find the light and just move forward.
  • Don’t be afraid to ask for help.Ever.
  • Find some consistency. Even if it doesn’t seem consistent, as long as you’re pushing towards your goals…you’re going to make the change permanent.
  • Don’t be afraid of failure. Failure is just in your head, there really are no failures…only lessons. Find the lesson and push forward. Readjust if you must, but keep moving towards the goal.
  • Get out of your own head. Don’t overthink it, just do it.

I think my last bit of advice on making change is this…

ALWAYS believe in yourself…and when you don’t, do it anyway.

I didn’t believe in myself when I stepped foot out to go on that run this morning. I knew there was NO way I was going to beat that time of 13:31…but I went out, and tried my damndest anyway.

I crushed it, by the way…by over 2 minutes.

You don’t always have to believe in yourself to create change, you just have to fight through the fear.

After all, on the other side of fear lies freedom.

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xoxo

OkieGirl

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

#RoadTo27 Day 1

You know how they say it takes 21 days to form a habit? Well, I’m about to see how many habits I can create in the next 3 weeks.

In 3 weeks I will be turning 27! No, it’s not a particularly common milestone year..but for me, it is significant.

When I turned 26 last year I vowed that this would be my healthiest year…26 would be the year I FINALLY got my life in order. Honestly, I didn’t think it’d happen, but you know what…

IT DID!

I swapped the booze for protein shakes and the parties for dates with myself in my gym.

I started running, doing yoga and seeking the true “me” …it’s been a long year full of HUGE changes, and I couldn’t be more proud of the woman I’ve become.

I’m not sure exactly what direction I’m going to take this #RoadTo27 …maybe I’ll do something every day, maybe I’ll challenge myself to something new, maybe I’ll just reflect..we’ll see.

BUT – here’s to day 1.

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xoxo

OkieGirl

 

This One’s For You, Tea.

I guess maybe you thought I forgot to make a big sappy Facebook post for your birthday and all you got was a boring ole 7am text!

Well, I didn’t forget…I just had another plan.

See, I don’t want to just celebrate you on 8/28 …I want to celebrate you EVERY day before and after that day too!

I’ll never forget the rundown building and the Ole’ Hillbilly that brought us together.

“You’ve been to the shack?!”

I can’t possibly imagine growing up without you.

Who else would have camped out with a bunch of crazy old men just to run lines and catch fish as big as us?

Who would I have shot cowpies in the pasture with, if not you?

Who would have slapped me out of my blackout after the wheeler crash?

Who would have rode Peppy?

Who would have taught me to ignore my insecurities and just call the stupid boy?

Who would have believed in me when I didn’t even believe in myself?

Who would have healed my heart, COUNTLESS times…

Who would have had an extra key to my truck?

Who would I have screamed “Lean On Me” to in the bus?

Who’s Momma would have loved me and taken me for donuts?

Who would I cry with, who would I laugh with, who would I life with…if it weren’t for you?

You…have been the most selfless, kind, caring friend I have ever been blessed with.

You’ve been there through EVERY high and low of my life.

You’ve been there when you didn’t have to…and you’ve thrown me in that big yellow Dodge more times than I can count.

I love you isn’t enough to express it, but it’s all I’ve got.

You’re my forever leaning post, laughing outlet and other half.

You were my first soulmate, and I’m so glad I found you so early!

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To the moon, Little One…

xoxo

-BabyGirl

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Who I Want To Be.

Sometimes I write and save things in a folder on my computer titled “My Mess” …it’s kinda my journal. I go back through it from time to time when I need inspiration or something…today, I came across this post and Lord knows I needed it. It’s funny how much sense we make if we just listen to our own advice.

 

Who I want to be:

I want to be a fit, strong, sexy and confident woman. I want to inspire people to be better and help others find fitness. I want to matter to someone. I want to FEEL love the same way I give it. I want to know someone who I can be so brutally honest with that it almost hurts, but just almost.

I never want to have to hide who I want to be. I never want to feel like I’m walled off from who I can be.

I want to run, be free, just be…in nature, in the world.

I want to see things – beautiful things, things that haven’t been made but have been created.

I want to see sunsets in every state and run miles down a beach until I collapse in laughter and just breathe in the salty air.

I want someone to share in my passions, whatever they may be. I want someone to believe in me to the point it almost seems toxic, but just almost.

I never want to be afraid.

Not of anything.

Especially not of becoming exactly who I am.

xoxo

OkieGirl

Hey, Mom…

I know you love her more than you love me.

Even though my whole life I’ve tried to be the perfect daughter. I’ve done everything I could do to try and make you proud of me. I’ve bent over backwards to help you just to make sure you’d love me. I’ve defended you hundreds of times to countless people…

…but you’ll never love me the way you love her.

She’s so ugly, though. She controls you. She’s turned you into someone I don’t even know. She makes you do things that make no sense, she constantly puts you in danger …and she begs you to hurt me; so you do.

She has turned you into someone so selfish and empty that I don’t even recognize your voice.

You don’t smile.

You don’t laugh.

You don’t sleep.

You don’t live…

…but you’ve got her.

You’ve got your pretty little pill addiction to get you through the day…

..but I don’t.

I have to wake up every morning and wonder if you’re still alive…and I have to deal with that, without a mistress, EVERY single day.

I have to go through HUGE things, alone.

No girl should have to sit in the bathroom floor crying while she’s losing what would have been her first child, because she can’t even call her Mom.

No girl should have to fight for the love and attention of her mother…

…so I’m done fighting.

You’ve got her, and I’ve got me.

You’ve always chose her over me…so now, I’m choosing me over you.

I hope she is there for you when you fall…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Brain Breaks Are Mandatory!

I think I have discovered the most important part to my health and fitness journey…

BRAIN BREAKS!

What?

Yeah…BRAIN breaks – an unspecified amount of time to FORGET all the things you’re constantly stressing over; specifically diet and exercise. I don’t ever plan them, and they are for no specific amount of time and have no rules.

This last “brain break” has lasted for a month now! My longest one yet – however, I’ve learned so much about my body and my nutrition! This morning I woke up and was done with it. How do I know? It’s just a feeling…a new found feeling of motivation and drive. A mood I have dubbed “world conquery”.  The first brain break only lasted about 4 days, the second a week, third almost 2 weeks, and like I said…this one has been going on for a month. They seem to space themselves farther and farther apart, though.

When I lose motivation and drive I take that as a sign to just sit back and live, enjoy life, LEARN and listen to my body and what it has to say. Learning your body and learning to ACTUALLY listen to it is really hard. We are born to listen and know what it needs and are later taught to do things in a specific way …which eventually wrecks this fitness and nutrition intuition.

Whoa…right?

During this brain break I discovered that I have completely unearthed my fit-nutrition intuition! In the past 4 weeks I have eaten better than I EVER have, consistently. I haven’t had a single binge, or even the urge to do so. I have discovered that my body really likes to eat paleo style…I learned that because I ate what “sounded good” every single day. 90% of the time “what sounds good” was meat and veggies. I also learned that my body prefers to fast until about 11 every day. I learned that sometimes a gallon of water a day isn’t enough. I learned that my body reacts insanely to functional exercise (in my case this past month, WORKING).

I learned that through the past couple  of years of trying this and that and whatever…that just LISTENING and learning my body is the trick to creating a lifestyle that I’m going to be able to maintain forever.

Discovering all this has lit a new fire within me, flipping my “best mode “switch on again; driving me to chase a dream I actually never thought was attainable until after this brain break.

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I know, especially being from a small rural town, that a LOT of people aren’t going to understand my goals and aspirations…and that’s okay. I know I’m going to constantly catch hell because I’m eating a certain way and spending time creating a physique that I can be proud of. I’m sure people will continue to give me flack about being in bed early, spending money on protein shakes and drinking copious amounts of h2o… but I don’t care, because I want to smash these goals!

Don’t worry about what anyone says, set your own pace and just DO the damn thing – whatever it may be. Your destiny is simply that, YOURS!

Never be afraid to become who you were born to be.

Xoxo

OkieGirl

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