So Long, 20Fourteen.

As I sit here today, piddling with some things at the office I realized something;

I think I’m growing up.

The past month as been interesting as far as personal growth and like …life awareness for me.

I’ve continued to make decisions based on what I want, MY future and well being and just doing things that make me happy.

Sounds kinda selfish, I guess…but I don’t feel bad about it.

In 25 years of living with myself I’ve learned a lot about me…and one of my biggest flaws and greatest assets are one in the same. I care too much about other people and helping them achieve and realize greatness within themselves.

It’s a flaw because in doing this I shove myself to the back and don’t worry about me.

WELL – 2015 brings a new opportunity to better myself and my life.

I have a lot of goals, but something I wish to focus on more than anything is simply taking care of myself mentally, physically and spiritually.

I’ve come to realize that those I love and care for won’t suffer for this, but will benefit. If I’m in my best health and frame of mind I can help them realize their greatness even better!! See how I tricked myself into taking better care of me by assuming it will benefit others?

I guess I’m pretty selfless…but making others happy truly is what makes me happy. It’s what I was born to do.

I was created with broad shoulders and a strong back so I can hold the weight of many things….and I’m thankful for that.

I’ve really enjoyed this past year with all my friends and family and I just can’t wait for all the amazing things 2015 will bring us!

Happy New Year, all!

 

xoxo

 

OkieGirl

 

 

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Create Your Life.

Fitness is hard. Life is hard. Keeping a clean house is hard. Work is hard. Eating right is hard.

SO WHAT?

Why are we so lazy these days? I mean lets think about the days when folks got up at the crack of dawn to plant their crops by hand, do chores, stack hay, wash laundry, can veggies, clean house, cook meals, and so on. Do you think they ever laid there and though “Uhhh, I don’t wanna!”

Sure, they may have…but they never did, because they HAD to get up and create their lives.

You have to.

We HAVE to.

We have to open our eyes and realize that the lazy ass idle lifestyle so many of us live is not living. It’s just slowly watching the days pass on as we watch them roll by. We sit around and make excuses for not exercising or for eating shit food instead of just doing it. We sit around and make excuses for not getting projects done in time when the reason was because we sat there and slacked off.

All we do is make excuses.

There are some people out there who have been struck with misfortune and you know, I wish we could see the world through their eyes for just a moment.

I saw this video earlier and it put a lump in my throat.

This girl just dead lifted more weight than I can even think to lift WITH ONE ARM!

She damn sure doesn’t sit around and make excuses and feel sorry for herself, and I think we can all learn from that.

This life is way to short to be unhealthy, lazy, miserable, unhappy….

If you don’t like your job, find a new one.

If you don’t like your body, make a new one.

If you aren’t happy find something that will make you that way.

If you make a mistake, try again.

The only time you fail is when you give up.

SO DON’T!

Take advantage of each day because it REALLY could be your last.

xoxo

OkieGirl

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We Always Start Somewhere.

As I sit here nibbling on some steak sauce covered tuna I realized that I probably seem really weird to my co-workers. Given they are family, they think I’m a little weird anyway.

Let me give you a little back story before I go into whatever I was about to head into.

In high school  I was pretty active (training horses every day after school and on the weekends) so I was actually in really good shape. I didn’t really eat GREAT, but it wasn’t terrible, and I honestly had no idea that there was a difference. I think I weighed about 180 pounds (I’m 5’11”) and I had the WORST body image of anyone I know. I thought I was fat and gross and would never EVER wear a bikini anywhere that was public. I graduated and went to training full time…got in even better shape. I still had no idea. I was holding a little body fat in my middle and I couldn’t see all the other amazing things about my body. I can’t even tell you what my middle actually looked like!

WELL – here I am some 6 years later. I’m very happily married, and absolutely love myself and my body. Want to know something crazy? I’ve gained 40 pounds! NO – I’m not proud of that, and NO I’m not healthy (hold please, getting to that one) but I DO love my body. I am still strong even though I’ve got some extra body fat…and my body puts up with tons of abuse and still keeps going.

Some time last year I decided I had to get my shit together and get rid of this extra weight. It wasn’t just to feel and look better…it was mainly because I was concerned for my health and my joints. Well …I wasn’t 100% committed and partying was way more fun than eating well and working out. I yo-yoed from fad diet to fad diet, burner and blocker to all kinds of stupid workouts….but I couldn’t ever stick with any of them.

I was never concerned about “fitness” only about losing some weight so I would feel better and look better.

It was around the end of June when my vision of weight loss and fitness and muscles all changed.

My sweet friend D (who has always been a fit girl/yogi/clean eater since I’ve known her) decided that she would take on a bikini fitness competition (yea, I had no idea what that was either!). Well, when girls do something like that they like to take photos mid-way through their “prep” to document how much their bodies change…I’m kinda a photographer, so she hit me up and we set a date.

That morning when I was snapping shots of D and P and chatting about what they do was the day I decided that I had to get on that heavy lifting bandwagon.

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(NOTE – those girls were still FIVE weeks out from their show – they rock!)

Well, of course I got all motivated for about a month…eating really well and working out (wrong) at home. I didn’t see results and off the wagon I fell. I kept making up excuses and just almost giving up on myself. Somewhere in all of that raucous I really found an interest in nutrition and just spent hours and hours each week reading and learning and researching. This eventually lead to a huge interest in fitness and the human body…reading, learning, researching. SO after about 3 months of that I decided that I was actually getting pretty dang educated on all of this and I should REALLY commit. So I did…and I haven’t looked back.

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I joined my local YMCA (we don’t have a gym) and it took me about a month to actually GO. I was doing yoga and focusing on my eating and started seeing some results and real changes in my body. That motivated me more. Last Monday I went to the gym for the first time since I got my membership and I smashed it. I went 4 days and worked out at home one day. My eating was good and I even managed to cut out a ton of those evening cocktails!

Something in my mind finally changed and I feel 1000% committed to building my best body. I have no doubt that this time will be the last time…and I will never have to take another before photo. I’m doing this for me and no one else. There will be people that discourage me and tell me that I’m crazy. There will be non believers and family members who mock my green smoothies. There will be people who don’t like that I have muscles instead of a soft figure but you know what…I DON’T CARE! It’s my body – not theirs!

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I realize this post has been about me finding a love of fitness…but this goes for anything. Keep working towards what you want and eventually you will find the right path to get there. It hasn’t been easy and I’m sure it will continue to challenge me – but I like that. I need that.

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I hope to one day be able to educate young women about the importance of clean eating and a healthy lifestyle…hell, I hope to be able to educate any woman! I just want to inspire people and help them find and achieve their passions.

This is going to be one hell of a journey and I’m excited that y’all will be sharing it with me.

Here’s to health and chasing dreams.

Now…it’s leg day so I’m gonna jet!

xoxo

OkieGirl

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Be Thankful.

I am sure there are plenty of posts floating around telling you to be thankful this holiday season.

I say, screw that.

Be thankful all the time!

I read something the other day that hit me pretty hard;

 “If you woke up this morning with only the things you thanked God for last night, what would you have.”

That morning I would have had nothing.

That’s not good, Kristen.

I guess in the face of something like that you can either be like, “ooh, I suck, blah..blah” or you can change.

I chose to change.

Each day I acknowledge what I’m thankful for. I remind my husband and family what they mean to me. I thank God for the strength he gave me to endure the day and all of the blessing he has brought into my life. I pat myself on the back and thank my body for carrying me through the day. I take a good look around at all the STUFF I have and remember that I am one blessed lady.

It’s not about things or money – it’s about the quality of your LIFE.

Be thankful for what you have, and be thankful for what you don’t have.

Work to achieve your goals and pray for strength when you are faced with struggles.

Life is a gift in itself, don’t waste it.

Place no trust in tomorrow.

xoxo

-OkieGirl